Live From New York City....

....Here goes two live videos from New York City where Blacklisted plays tracks of our up coming LP, the title track and another song called "Everything In My Life Is For Sale". I was sick at this show and that mixed with sweating mixed with a rainy day, well, just bare with me on the songs.

No One Deserves To Be Here More Than Me.
"Sometimes I leave the house early, Just to ride the subway all day, Sizing up ever station, To see which one fits my plan of jumping in front of the train."




Everything In My Life Is For Sale
"Maybe they're hiring scarecrows, I can sit in a field in the sun, I don't need the training, I already repulse everyone."

You're In The Bathroom Carving Holiday Designs Into Yourself, Hoping No One Will Find You...

October, November and December are the worse months, they possess not one redeeming quality.

My Brain Is Broken....

I've been living in a strange astral plane, hopefully I come home soon...







Both of these songs/videos CRUSH me.

Yeah I'm A Mean Motherfucker Now, But I Once Was Cool, I Was Born A Long Time Ago Today, And Everybody That Loves Me Goes Away....

.... Today is my 27th birthday. I was born September 22nd, 1982 in Augsburg, Bavaria, Germany. By the time my parents were my age, they had 2 sons, full time jobs and a house. Crazy. Recently someone told me I was obsessed with the ideas of fatherhood and marriage. I would have to strongly disagree, its not that I am obsessed in a "I long for it" sort of way, I think I am more so obsessed with the pure, raw, grim craziness of those things. Perhaps it is out of pure selfishness. If I want to stay up for two days straight and watch the X files, I am going to do that, with a wife and child(ren) that is a luxury which is not permitted. If I wanted to quit my job to go to the Czech Republic to see the Sedlec Ossuary , well I couldn't because I have love and human responsibility darkening my door. I think the world places too much emphasis on the lie that love and procreation will equal normalcy or give some sense of stability, and that is insane to me. Sometimes you have to have a major breakdown, leave a job interview in the middle of it, come home and not speak to anyone or go outside for a while, you have to spend your time listening to Church Of Misery and Buzzoven and really evaluate what the fuck you are doing all the while dreading even getting your mail. It happens, this is real life. Wives, Children, they just do not fit in the plan....Man.

Anyway, that rant was courtesy of a song that will be recorded in the next few days, to be released in the near future. Its actually scarily to the point. Here go some lyrics to it....

"At twenty seven years old, I live in a white-walled apartment alone, Knowing full well I'll never marry, or have children of my own, and I still keep the world at bay with all the stones I throw. "

I've always been different, With one foot over the line....

R.I.P RAYBEEZ. 1961-1997.

Enslaved I Can't Be Saved....

....I've received a fair amount of emails regarding the new song Blacklisted played at Sound and Fury/This Is Hardcore. The video of us playing that song was released a couple weeks ago and was given to the masses release via Deathwish Inc. during the announcement of our upcoming 12" LP "No One Deserves To Be Here More Than Me". I was asked what the lyrics were/what they were about and was even given a few guess as to what it is I am saying, which was very interesting. I am flattered that so many people have taken the time out to reach me and ask me about it. The song as it was also released via Deathwish Inc. is called "I'm Trying To Disappear." lyrically, well, it goes like this....

This life's not inviting
The fighting in me has ceased
When it looks like I'm
Growing
Thin
And
Weak
Please don't hesitate to cut the leash
It's only a matter of time
Before I inherit my bloodlines evils
I don't think its wise for me to get close to too many people
My bruises seem to be breeding
And my body's become a landing strip for flies
In the mirror watching blood dry
Trying to cut out the bags beneath my eyes
My skin is turning grey
I haven't bathed in days
Please don't encourage me
I'm enslaved I can't be saved.
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved
Enslaved I can't be saved, Enslaved I can't be saved


Playlist:
White Zombie-Soul Crusher.
Neurosis-Given To The Rising.
Jucifer-I Name You Destroyer.
David Bazan-Curse Your Branches.